Beginnings are scary

I have always wanted to begin a blog and truly commit to it, but it's always been 'the wrong time', I've been 'too busy', I've been too stressed, etc. Enough excuses. At eighteen, I am beginning to realise that if you want to get anywhere in this world, you need to commit. So here I am. Committing.

Beginnings are always scary. I'm just finishing school (two days left... help) and I've realised that I'm no longer going to have a safety net. I've got to face the big wide world. I'm going to have student loans to re-pay. I'm going to have to go to banks and actually understand what they are saying (this is a big deal for me - numbers + Carrie = confusion, and the need for lots and lots of cake). I'm going to university and I'm scared I'll arrive and noone will like me. I'm scared! I remember my first day of Secondary school, having been quite a big 'loser' at primary - I was petrified. And now, after 7 years of being at my school, I realise that I had nothing to be afraid of. I made friends with people I didn't even believe would acknowledge my existence. In my own awkward, pubescent, unique way, I thrived. What I'm trying to say is, as much as I'm scared noone will read this blog, that's ok. I'm making a change and I'm committing to something, and I'm proud of myself for that - and in a couple of years time, I'm sure I'll feel happy I did.

A little about me: I personally believe I'm quite socially awkward, and seem to be a weird-people magnet at bus-stops and in town. I doodle a LOT and am currently trying to create my own design business (something I hope you will hear more about through this blog) creating phone-cases, recycled notebooks, etc. I love music you can melt into like Kodaline's 'A Perfect World' or Ed Sheeran's 'Give Me Love'. I love old Disney movies (and actually the new ones, like Princess and the Frog aren't half bad). I also like watching soppy romantic films supposedly 'ironically' and then surreptitiously wiping tears tracks off my face.

Of course, I have ambitions. I hope to become an artist (specifically a sculptor but dabbling in painting too) and a freelance graphic designer. Equally, I want to create my own charity specifically for women fighting for female equality not only in the workplace, but in the home, tackling issues such as consent and pay (again this is something you will hopefully hear more about through my blog). Obviously, this is quite a big goal, but it's my ambition to change the world, even a little.

My plans for the blog are big. *does little nervy excited dance*. I'll be doing beauty, fashion, craft, design and art posts. I'm happy to answer questions and if you tweet me on my blog twitter, I will always answer any questions you have, whether they're personal or you just want to get in contact. From the bottom of my heart, I would love to hear from anyone who spoke to me and I would talk to you like I would a friend.

In all, I'm hoping to post 3 times a week, about anything and everything. If you want a little insight into my world, please follow me on my social media platforms.

Let's do this!